If you’re new here, hello. Prepare for a personal-ass post.
If you’ve been here before, you’ve probably noticed that I’ve changed my blog’s name and deleted all my old posts. While it’s been almost a year since I’ve written anything, it’s definitely been a hell of a year.
I’ve always said I wanted this blog to be fun. I would never let it become a job or a chore. I’ve never cared about being a blogger or an influencer or whatever. I just wanted my little corner of the internet where I could express everything I love. But then it stopped being fun so I stopped blogging.
I think I was just really depressed for a while and didn’t want to admit it. I was in a relationship that was having major issues, dealing with family drama, and the future of my career was up in the air. I always ended up having to be the one that held the fort down, was the shoulder to cry on, and was the voice of reason. But then I think I started to lose myself a little bit and fell into a depression and anxiety worm hole.
Then, about a month before I turned 25, I ended my long term relationship, bought my first place, tried to distance myself from drama, and finally got my career in order. I spent the first half of my 20’s trying to live for other people, but I’m going to be spending the rest of my life living for myself.
Anyways, sorry for the personal post. Maybe it makes up for almost a year of not writing anything. I promise I’ll come back this time.
Photo by Ben Staley.
Welcome back! Thank you for sharing. So many of us can relate so you’re definitely not alone. 💛